Days I Haven't Died

3rd November 2017 I had no idea who would be calling from the community worried about me. My probation officer let me know he'd received multiple calls from the community concerning me. In other words, people had been worried and called about it. I didn't ask who'd called or what they might've said because I didn't want to know. It angered me to know anyone would think to go over my head and I thought that anger was better left directionless. The probation office meeting was a quick quarter hour followed by the quarter hour drive back home. I caught up on the newest episode of Lucifer with the roommate. Lucifer told the woman whose body his mother had inhabited that he'd missed his mother; it was touching. During the episode that he cast his mother out of earth, she cried to him for how much she would miss him and he backed away in silence. I thought about my own mother and father, but not for more than a moment. I imagined them or my brothers calling, ...