All Often Inside

Inside, everything’s on fire

How am I still alive?

I decide to keep on fighting

When will the end arrive?

I need someone’s attention to pull me out of this

Desire for affection while the touch is meaningless

It’s hard to be so hungry for what I’ve never missed

It’s tearing me to pieces and one has gone amiss

I can’t replace it, I’ll never try

Believe me it’s still very much alive

It’s hard that it’s not with me

It’s tearing me apart inside

All the time it’s took to face this

Without choking on my pride

Has left me burned and faithless

That’s why I need you by my side

You were supposed to be the light to show me life.

Instead you left me broken and bitter, betrayed and cast aside.

How could I have forseen this?

All the words you said were lies.

If I fell you said you’d catch me,

But instead you stabbed me from behind.

Now if you think I’ll listen,

You’re out of your fucking mind.

You said you would catch me.

In the end you let me fall.

Don’t you dare say I’m overreacting,

I know that you were wrong.

I cannot forgive you for the pain you have caused.

You used me like an object, you broke me from inside.

I thought that I could trust you.

You only fucking lied.

Before I could find reason to love myself again

You told me I was worth it and said you were my friend

My walls were down around you, I let you in thinking you’d be a light

In my trying hours of darkness, a civil war in my own mind

(I trusted you, you failed to do what you said you would. Like a knife to my back you pushed it through and I never understood.)

In my darkest hour you came to rescue me.

You were meant to be a saving grace for me.

Instead you took my heart and tore it all to pieces.

Lost and left alone,

You said you would be always there for me.

Instead you disappeared and left me there defeated.